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Sharon Boyle's avatar

I don't understand how these people can lie in such a brass-necked way. A caravan with no shower in Scotland in winter is miserable (I live in Scotland so know the weather). Hopefully, you and your OH will find a place soon, warm and cosy x

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Amanda Saint's avatar

Brass necked indeed! We have two house sits in Scotland lined up now, covering early December to mid-April. Looking after pets in people’s homes and we’ve had Zooms with the people and they’re all nice and their homes, and dogs and cats, look lovely. But still hoping for that place of our own soon too 💙

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Mark VanLaeys's avatar

I'm so glad things are looking up for you - you're obviously in a tough spot. Hopefully there will be some light around the corner where you can grow some roots and watch the karma pendulum swing in the opposite direction.

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Amanda Saint's avatar

Thanks Mark. I really hope so.

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Utpaladhī's avatar

I’m really sorry to hear you’re having such a hard time. Thank you for sharing so authentically and for sharing this deep wisdom you’re drawing from 💜 sending wishes for positive change, when the time is right

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Amanda Saint's avatar

Thank you 🙏 💙

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Lizzie Swift's avatar

Thank you for sharing this wisdom, Amanda - and I wish you clear water soon. Letting the mud settle is a beautiful concept x

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Amanda Saint's avatar

Thanks Lizzie. I’m holding on hoping the time for it to settle is soon! 💙

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Paolo Peralta's avatar

I will be patient until the mud settles and the water is clear. I will remain unmoving until the right action arises by itself.

Divine right action reign supreme in my life ❤️ all is well ❤️

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Rachel's avatar

I feel like this resonates with me as a pattern I'm feeling in my own life and that friends are talking about. It's a feeling that suddenly the old way that has sustained you, often on a very practical level, is no longer tenable and that something has to be let go of, but it's hard to visualise a way forward because in a sense the way forward is unthought of and new, and you don't want to rebuild using the old principles because that will lead to more of the old. It feels like a metaphor of the time. I think there is great wisdom in what you say: that the most beneficial thing is to remain present and grateful and allow the way forward to grow from that place. It requires so much trust. It's exhausting :) May the path grow up to meet your feet <3

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Amanda Saint's avatar

Yes exactly. We don’t even want to go back to renting through agencies but get so tired of all this that it feels like a better option sometimes. But we know in our hearts it’s not. I think this need for change has just been so dominant as things have turned out to be pretty rubbish here!

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Emily Conway's avatar

Hi Amanda,

What a spot! Not fun, and lots of opportunity for stirring of the mud. I love the chapter you quoted as I am so familiar with being in a space of waiting for what will come next to unfold. What's funny is that I still manage to flop around in the mud with impatience and all sorts of other emotions, even though I know (and feel) from experience that whatever situation I'm "stuck" in will go, and I'll flow downstream into the new. I'm aware of my flopping:) and manage to notice and laugh at it (with it?) - when I'm not frustrated. Ah well. Blessings on you - I'm glad you have some house sits lined up for the end of the year and beginning of 2024. It helps to have an end date:)

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Amanda Saint's avatar

Yes I still do a bit of flopping despite best intentions. But then I catch myself and rein myself back in! End date for Canada house sit is 4 weeks today and counting! Things have been very challenging indeed this week as the owners of the house have proven to be volatile and unstable. Getting hysterical at the slightest things and bombarding us with aggressive emails then sending really gushy apology ones! It does feel good to know we have 4.5 months of a semblance of stability lined up for back in the UK.

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Emily Conway's avatar

Ugh. Yes, counting the days. I am glad you'll have several months of recovery time relatively soon.

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